So for those of us who are sort of left to navigate multiple levels of physical, sexual and emotional abuse on our own...where does this leave us? This is the kind of thing faced by a person who has grown up largely unprotected, not listened to, and gaslighted. It can leave us raw, broken, and aimless, grasping and defeated...with tremendous physical illnesses that manifest as a result of all we have been submitted to...
Do you believe that you are just as important as anyone else? When you refuse to express what you need and want to those around you- those who love you- you are training them to walk on eggshells.
When people have to put on their nasty pants and then get online in order to disseminate their own self loathing and lack of understanding to others, there's really no good excuse for that. Therapy is available to all, in one form or another. And, yep, those who need it most may never get it.
The negative state of world, on heavy repetition, is not what we need to be filling our heads with if we want to feel good. You are letting others (strangers-and not very intelligent ones at that) wash your brain with half-truths, sensationalism and divisive stories. Stories designed to do exactly what they are doing, divide our nation and divide our world.
You don't get to hide behind your religion and judge others for what your perceive their walk with God to be. That is between them and God. Hate has nothing to do with God. You think that you are hiding within your holier-than-thou attitude, but you really just look cruel and close-minded. And you aren't fooling anybody but yourself. There is no room in this world for bigotry, misogyny, judging of folks for their sexuality, or hate of any kind. When you judge others, you don't just hate- you ARE hate.
There are many points in life where we have to do tough things. We try to make new friends, we try to recover from an illness, we try to recover our children, we try to get over something hurtful that someone said to us. I have found that if I keep trying to do those things, it never happens, or only partially so. But when I change my attitude to, "I am doing this well, it is for me, and it is happening now", truly amazing things happen, and that is the sweet spot.
But sometimes, in my human-ness, and in the fog of getting caught up in that which is less important, I forget about what exactly God is capable of. I was reminded a few weeks ago that the bigger and more earnest and confident the prayer, the more likely God is to hear it and to answer it. I have found this to be true time and time again.